I really wish I could fit the thinking emoji into the title, but I can't. Damn.
Recent events have caused me to really rethink my life. The decision to leave the church has been extremely difficult, and I think I've been getting away from all of the pain and frustration through video games. You know that guy that plays video games all the time? The one that ways four hundred pounds, drinks mountain dew, and eats doritos for breakfast, second breakfast, lunch, afternoon Dew, and supper? Yeah, that guy's got nothing on me. I weigh eight hundred pounds, drink maple syrup instead of water, and---All right, I'm not even gonna go along with the hyperbole that I was planning on using. Needless to say, I've been playing a lot of video games because I've been in a bit of pain from recent occurrences.
Now though, I'm beginning to think that my life would be better off without video games. Personally, I've played video games throughout my life because they're extremely fun. Not only that though; I haven't had a lot of friends (probably because of playing so many video games and being anti-social--go figure) and so I haven't been hanging out with people, so I play games. They were also a great release when I wanted to procrastinate or just forget life, which was often. Honestly, there have been a lot of fun and good experiences from games, but I think that I need to move on. I thought that moving on from the church meant I would be able to play as many games as I wanted, but it turns out I was wrong.
It turns out, I actually need to find a purpose in my life.
The fact of the matter is, leaving the church has left a twenty two year old hole in me (that's my whole life, if you're trying to figure it out). I'm left figuring out just what life means to me and exactly what I want. It's kind of like Mermaid Man when he gets a hole blown in him, but with less explosives and not quite as hilarious. And also, he's not looking for a purpose in life. So, I mean, there's something out there I actually need to pursue. So, where do I go from here? Where do I find that purpose?
I'm not entirely sure, actually. So that's it. That's all I've got for you. Thanks for read--
PSYCH!
Honestly, I have a few ideas of what I should. My first thought, and the same thought that a number of other people have been pitching to me is that I should do what I love. What does that mean for me? I think that, in this instance, that means I should do something with writing. I love writing, especially writing this blog, and also writing stories that are entertaining to me and to other people. Creating worlds is just so awesome to me. On the other hand, I've always wanted to travel the world. Going to Japan was fun as hell, and with all the friends I have all over the world there's a lot of places I could go, a lot of people I could see. On the other hand, I've loved Dinosaurs for years; reptiles and amphibians too. Maybe I could do something with that.
My second thought is that maybe I need to do something with my life that's really beneficial to people. Now that is something I'm not really sure about. I think that my blog could be helpful. I mean, I've seen countless blogs get shared on social media by people that really seem to have been influenced them. That, and novels have great sway on people's minds. They really influence people and can help them (examples of books like this are everywhere, especially the classics). I've also thought about joining the marines. Sure, I would have to slim down a bit, and it would obviously be hard, but at least I'd know I'd be helping people somehow. I've even thought about becoming an elected official of some sort (that would obviously mean I have to actually get elected, but that's not that important). There's a lot I can do to help, I think.
I don't know. The possibilities are endless. For now, I know that I need to quit video games. And maybe I just need to go outside and meet people, help people somehow. Maybe that's a good start. Writing the blog will help, writing my books will help as well. But maybe I just need to get off my butt and do something.
It's funny, this has really helped me. I need to do this more often. This a pretty healthy practice (writing) for sure. I think I'll start with what I said. The future really is as we believe it to be. I hope to find my personal meaning in life now. What about you? Where do you hope to go? What do you hope to accomplish? Who do you want to be?
Something I've never forgotten from my mission is what my first trainer told me: "he who thinks he can, and he who thinks he can't are both usually right." Just believe. That's what I'm going for.
Here's to a future filled with root beer and other junk.
-JJ the Raving College Lunatic
Recent events have caused me to really rethink my life. The decision to leave the church has been extremely difficult, and I think I've been getting away from all of the pain and frustration through video games. You know that guy that plays video games all the time? The one that ways four hundred pounds, drinks mountain dew, and eats doritos for breakfast, second breakfast, lunch, afternoon Dew, and supper? Yeah, that guy's got nothing on me. I weigh eight hundred pounds, drink maple syrup instead of water, and---All right, I'm not even gonna go along with the hyperbole that I was planning on using. Needless to say, I've been playing a lot of video games because I've been in a bit of pain from recent occurrences.
Now though, I'm beginning to think that my life would be better off without video games. Personally, I've played video games throughout my life because they're extremely fun. Not only that though; I haven't had a lot of friends (probably because of playing so many video games and being anti-social--go figure) and so I haven't been hanging out with people, so I play games. They were also a great release when I wanted to procrastinate or just forget life, which was often. Honestly, there have been a lot of fun and good experiences from games, but I think that I need to move on. I thought that moving on from the church meant I would be able to play as many games as I wanted, but it turns out I was wrong.
It turns out, I actually need to find a purpose in my life.
The fact of the matter is, leaving the church has left a twenty two year old hole in me (that's my whole life, if you're trying to figure it out). I'm left figuring out just what life means to me and exactly what I want. It's kind of like Mermaid Man when he gets a hole blown in him, but with less explosives and not quite as hilarious. And also, he's not looking for a purpose in life. So, I mean, there's something out there I actually need to pursue. So, where do I go from here? Where do I find that purpose?
I'm not entirely sure, actually. So that's it. That's all I've got for you. Thanks for read--
PSYCH!
Honestly, I have a few ideas of what I should. My first thought, and the same thought that a number of other people have been pitching to me is that I should do what I love. What does that mean for me? I think that, in this instance, that means I should do something with writing. I love writing, especially writing this blog, and also writing stories that are entertaining to me and to other people. Creating worlds is just so awesome to me. On the other hand, I've always wanted to travel the world. Going to Japan was fun as hell, and with all the friends I have all over the world there's a lot of places I could go, a lot of people I could see. On the other hand, I've loved Dinosaurs for years; reptiles and amphibians too. Maybe I could do something with that.
My second thought is that maybe I need to do something with my life that's really beneficial to people. Now that is something I'm not really sure about. I think that my blog could be helpful. I mean, I've seen countless blogs get shared on social media by people that really seem to have been influenced them. That, and novels have great sway on people's minds. They really influence people and can help them (examples of books like this are everywhere, especially the classics). I've also thought about joining the marines. Sure, I would have to slim down a bit, and it would obviously be hard, but at least I'd know I'd be helping people somehow. I've even thought about becoming an elected official of some sort (that would obviously mean I have to actually get elected, but that's not that important). There's a lot I can do to help, I think.
I don't know. The possibilities are endless. For now, I know that I need to quit video games. And maybe I just need to go outside and meet people, help people somehow. Maybe that's a good start. Writing the blog will help, writing my books will help as well. But maybe I just need to get off my butt and do something.
It's funny, this has really helped me. I need to do this more often. This a pretty healthy practice (writing) for sure. I think I'll start with what I said. The future really is as we believe it to be. I hope to find my personal meaning in life now. What about you? Where do you hope to go? What do you hope to accomplish? Who do you want to be?
Something I've never forgotten from my mission is what my first trainer told me: "he who thinks he can, and he who thinks he can't are both usually right." Just believe. That's what I'm going for.
Here's to a future filled with root beer and other junk.
-JJ the Raving College Lunatic
Comments
Post a Comment